내가제일잘나가.

Bye Bye To This Tumblr.

New tumblr. New chapter.

If I could say sorry to each person that I’ve hurt in the past, I would.

But I’m afraid how they would look at me.. how they will think I’m pathetic for finally apologizing now.

And I’m afraid whether they will accept my apology or not.

I re-read the break up conversation between me and Ryan. I was so cold-hearted. And I never gave him the chance to be friends with me. Who am I to say now that Nhut was an asshole for breaking up with me? Compared to me, his break up email isn’t half as bad as the words that I’ve said. I’m Done With You. I Can’t Talk to You. I Don’t Want To. I Don’t Need This. Such hurtful phrases. He begged me. And I still refused. I even refuse to keep a friendship with him. But compared to Nhut, he fulfilled my need for attention and affections fully. He called me everyday, told me he missed me, loved me. But what was I so unsatisfied with that I wanted more? What was it in particular that irked me in a way that I couldn’t even stand to talk to him… 

I accept everything karma has in store for me because I deserve it all. 

Out to the bar. In the snow. In skanky dresses. Only girls.

Never let anyone fall for you when you know there’s someone else in your heart and mind.

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I wish I was strong. I’ve erased every physical memory of you, but yet you’re still imprinted in my heart. 

If I stood in front of you, would your heart skip a bit? Would you want to hold me in your arms? And would you feel like you need me?

I miss you still. Regardless of how much I want to deny it. Because deep down- a tiny part of me- wish that you were still fighting for us. That one day, you will tell me how you regret breaking up and it’s the worst mistake of your life. 

But you’re not that kind of person. Still, a wish is a dream that will never come true. I’ll just need to keep that in mind.

FOUR DAYS.. till then.

new beginning.

start fresh.

kick the old out.

and bring the new in.

<3